I started writing my book with the desire to help others. I survived after many years of abuse, custody battles, poverty, addiction, and despair. I want my story and experience to be an example of unconditional love. I am starting this blog as a part of healing. I am in a better place now.
Unconditional love is the only way. Unconditional love comes easy when it comes to our children. God must love us unconditionally and it is evident because we are so blessed. Where is the unconditional love for ourselves? The most challenging thing for an abuse victim is just that. I never wanted anyone to know about my past. I didn’t want them to believe I was broken. I have always been a very private person, so much so, that I wanted to believe I was never abused.
This book would not only be difficult for me to write, but not a word of my past has ever been spoken to anyone other than to my husband over the years. The silence in my psychiatric sessions was awkward so I started bringing my husband to kill the silence. Silently I blamed myself for feeling hurt.
Conventional methods like medication and therapy didn’t seem to work or bring me any closer to loving myself. If I didn’t deal with my past how would I love myself? So even though my story began at the age of 7, I wrote this book at the age of 43. While praying a rosary I felt a strong urge for transparency. I felt if all that happened to me could help others, I would learn to love myself. If sharing my story can help masses of people, then all that I have been through was well worth it. Honestly, I like myself better when I am helping others.
I knew that writing this book would be quite challenging and it might come with a lot of negative ramifications from the perpetrators. Just like the song from Imagine Dragons, if one must sacrifice for the good of all so be it. I am beginning to have unconditional love for myself because I am helping others. That’s unconditional love when you prioritize helping others.
Aimee Cabo Nikolov is a Cuban American who has lived most of her life in Miami. She is a trained nurse and the president and owner of IMIC, Inc, a medical research company in Palmetto Bay. Love is the Answer God is the Cure is her first book.